After a loooooong (lovely!) week and a loooooong (lovely! lovely!) Saturday, I found myself hobbling a bit while walking my dog last night, my aching hips and knees a reminder that I crossed a line somewhere in all the awesomeness of hard work and good people, and still have chronic conditions from almost 20 years of Lyme Disease and its related terrors. I wanted to take a hot, Epson-salted bath. Or break my legs with a hammer. I know a few of you out there will recognize that sensation.
So instead of going out dancing way downtown, I cut my night short and parked it inside. I was shocked to find myself drawn to a Josh Duhamel movie. This made absolutely NO sense since I’m generally not a “chick-flick” or “rom-com” or any other horribly kitschy-named movie genre fan and don’t think I’ve ever actually seen this dude in a film before. Why was I drawn to a film that would bring out my innermost, snarkiest criticizer but also bring me some weirdly cheap comfort? Because I recalled that during my last serious bout of Lyme all my exhausted brain and body could handle were the most mindless shmather (it’s a word, now), movies that were nothing more than visual background noise (realize I’m taking too many liberties with language now… I’ll get to the point).
One cupcake. Along with my bad movie I just wanted one cupcake. Not a bunch of cookies, not a batch of anything to have sitting around.
So I made one. Using Michael Ruhlman’s Ratio for sponge cake as a base, I made an incredibly dense, fudgy cupcake, perfect with a dab of the leftover vegan blackcurrant “cream-cheese” frosting haunting me from another recipe (posting soon). I sloppily mixed weighing and measuring ingredients together and checked the timing on it occasionally while giving myself a good stretch on the floor.
And then I ate it while pondering Duhamel’s left eyebrow. And mulling over the state of romantic comedies of my age demographic. And willing myself to just change the channel!
You ever have nights like this?
When you just want one… here ya go.
Oh, and now that I’m rested and medicated, the sun is shining and I’m off to review a few incredible NYC food events… life is back to lovely.
- 1 ounce unsalted butter
- 1 ounce beet sugar
- 1 ounce beaten egg
- 1 ounce gluten-free cake flour
- 1/4 tsp vanilla extract
- 1/4 tsp chocolate extract
- 2 tsp cocoa powder
- dash of kosher salt
- Preheat oven to 350°. Put a cupcake liner in a tin or ramekin.
- Add the salt and cocoa to the flour.
- In a small bowl, beat butter on medium/high until creamy.
- Add sugar and beat until light and fluffy, about 2 minutes.
- Add egg and beat until pale and fluffy, and slightly expanded in volume.
- Add extracts and beat to combine.
- Add flour and mix on low until just combined.
- Pour into prepared dish and bake for about 18 minutes or toothpick inserted comes out clean.